Unapologetic idealist, recovering addict, neurodivergent Spoonie living with Bipolar II; learning to live large, one day at a time by recreating myself and what that means for the world around me. Not a survivor, a warrior.
Intersectional Feminist. Trans/Gender/Queer/Mental Health writer|artist|blogger|warrior. Documenting my testosterone-fuelled journey as a feminist queer. #diaryofaqueerfemininistgenderfucker
Transgender person on testosterone with constantly changing feelings about and descriptions of my gender. Currently and always nonbinary and genderqueer, and currently agender/neutrois/androgynous | Puglover | Bibliophile | Lover of Popular Culture | Proud GymBunny | Johannesburg, South Africa
DISCLAIMER: Not as an apology or an explanation. Not even as a disclaimer, but words have power and disclaimers have a way of making people read the fine print.
Everything I write is, obviously, my opinion and things I have learnt in my 40 years as a human being. It is not The Truth. It is my truth. Which is constantly changing, as am I.
Everything I write is a journal to me about my journey as a human being, a manual for living in the making, but a manual that will never be finished. I write it because I write what I like, what I love, and because I cannot not write. It is who I am. I write to remind me of the lessons learnt and to keep me on track, to keep me sane, to keep me searching, to keep me finding the answers to my questions.
Nothing is ever set in stone, except that diamond-bright solid core within the changeableness that is everything else. If what I write resonates with someone, awesome. If no one reads this, just as awesome, because I’m reading it. And without writing it, there is no Dear Reader, even if the Dear Reader is me).
All images and text © Germaine de Larch, 2017.
(Pretentious artist statement below for those of you who are bored)…
“[T]he demand that everything must make a spectacular political statement […] has forced us to gloss over the nooks and crannies [….] By rediscovering the ordinary […] the daily lives of people should be the direct focus of political interest [….] If it is a new society we seek to bring about in South Africa then that newness will be based on a direct concern with the way people actually live.” – Njabulo Ndebele, 2001, South African Literature and Culture: Rediscovery of the Ordinary
My work (writing and images) is an artistic exploration of making the private public. For me there is no politics outside of the private, nothing extraordinary outside of the carnival of everyday, ordinary life. My artistic vision stems from the need to share the quirky, queer, beautiful and extraordinary that I see in the ordinary. I am in love with the individual, eccentric beauty and extraordinariness that I see in the ordinary around me in my daily life – the very human landscape of the city we live in, the selves that we choose to inhabit and the very organic and dynamic energy at the heart of the way that we engage with our city and our selves. It is this energy, this life-saving and life-celebrating renewal, recreation and renegotiation that is at the heart of my journey and who I am, what I see in this city and its people, and thus the images that I make.
My work is, first and foremost, a vehicle through which I perform the continuing creative construction of my identity; a way for me to document who I am, who I am becoming. I approach other spaces through fearlessly, and yet courageously, exploring inner space. My very confessional public excavation of the private through sharing my journey on Facebook and Twitter allows me to explore my self and my performance of my fluid identity and gender identity. By removing myself, as far as is possible, from the politicised community I live in, as well as the politicised categories I have lived within for most of my life, I am allowed the relative freedom of playing with and performing my own self, continuously and unendingly recreating and reconstructing my self, sharing that de- and reconstruction with my audience.
And the beauty is that my work has literally saved my life, has changed the way I see myself forever, has enabled me to fall in love with myself and the world around me. What started out as an autobiographical, therapeutic and healing process is now the framework for my work, allowing me to elicit the personal from the public, as my scrutiny of what it means to be human from the inside out allows me to see the human-ness in that which I see. I envision my portraiture as a mediated and collaborative experience of being stripped bare of its branded identity: humanity in its unmediated, ordinary and thus extraordinary form.
My images are a conscious choice to tell my own story and collaboratively tell the stories of my community, my city. My work is thus a collaboration with people and places on a journey of who they are, who are interested in playing with their identities, who want to explore the creative possibilities outside of the stereotypes. And they are not just objects outside of my self. They are a very human landscape rediscovering the extraordinary within the ordinary.